Napowrimo April 1 Prompt 2 Self Portrait

Prompt: "Today, however, I’d like to challenge you to write a self-portrait poem in which you make a specific action a metaphor for your life – one that typically isn’t done all that often, or only in specific circumstances. For example, bowling, or shopping for socks, or shoveling snow, or teaching a child to tie its shoes."

The metaphor for my life is something
no one ever talks about
except once when Judith Butler did it when I was lecturing on radicalism
and extremism in art
She came up front and spoke of it
She said it is something everyone does
but no one talks of
as they are ashamed to
but talking of it is my idea of being radical.
Maybe it was suggested by the synaesthetic metaphor
generator, I could say, and try to cover up 
but it is not as I had already planned to use it earlier
This is organic imagery
You have to guess what I am talking of as to say it
may make you think
but who would use that as a metaphor
You would not unless you felt it was like that
life
your life
something that has to be hidden 
then comes out and grows unexpectedly
and leaves a mess behind
Pleasure, then sleep
and children born
but mostly it is wasted
most of it
tonnes of it
What else is a metaphor, better
for life
my life
and wondering if I was a woman
and was writing of this as the metaphor
for her life
life
how it would be
and knowing that one cannot ever know
that
but this one can know
I need to break the suspense
or the ice
whichever you think is better
so let me tell you
what my metaphor is
it is nothing but
that my life
life 
is 
a lot like -
but before that
it is not such a low-down, cheap, dirty, filthy one; after all
I can make it sound great
by saying 
some worship it
and the explosion can be compared 
to the Big Bang
still & all 
one never talks of it
but let me be
radical
or extreme
or dare to be a fool
joker, clown, harlequin
on April Fool's Day
and say
my life
(your life?)
life
the perfect metaphor for it
an action, as the prompt says,
that describes it a hundred percent
is the most-people-do-it thing 
but never-discuss-it thing
which is nothing but the act of -
masturbation.

Painting of Natalia  by Schiavonni.

Napowrimo Day 1 April 1 First prompt Synaesthetic metaphor generator

A Five-finger Exercise to Fulfill a (Silly?) Prompt

We talk
She talks
I talk
of poetry
Discourse
turns to intercourse
In the future it will cum
to Be Di eS uM
when "the padded whistles
of emission
nebulae."