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Saturday, April 24, 2021

Erasure Poem from Margaret Atwood's Half Handed Mary prompt given by Gauri Dixit in TSL's Napowrimo April 24

 THE VENTILATOR

7pm



Help me down? You don't dare.

I might rub off on you,

like soot or gossip. Birds

of a feather burn together,

though as a rule ravens are singular.



In a gathering like this one

the safe place is the background,

pretending You can't dance,

the safe stance pointing a finger.



I understand. You can't spare

anything, a hand, a piece of bread, a shawl

against the cold,

a good word. Lord

knows there isn't much

to go around. You need it all.



12 midnight



My throat is taut against the rope

choking off words and air;

I'm reduced to knotted muscle.

Blood bulges in my skull,

my clenched teeth hold it in;

I bite down on despair



Death sits on my shoulder like a crow

waiting for my squeezed beet

of a heart to burst

so he can eat my eyes



or like a judge

muttering about sluts and punishment

and licking his lips

or the crowd

their own evil turned inside out like a glove,

and me wearing it.



or like a dark angel

whispering to me to be easy

on myself. To breathe out finally.

Trust me, he says, caressing

me. Why suffer?



A temptation, to sink down

into these definitions.

To become a martyr in reverse,

or food, or trash.



To give up my own words for myself,

my own refusals.

To give up knowing.

To give up pain.

To let go.


3am



wind seethes in the leaves around

me the tree exude night

birds night birds yell inside

my ears like stabbed hearts my heart

stutters in my fluttering cloth

body I dangle with strength

going out of me the wind seethes

in my body tattering

the words I clench

my fists hold No

talisman or silver disc my lungs

flail as if drowning I call

on you as witness I did

no crime I was born I have borne I

bear I will be born this is

a crime I will not

acknowledge leaves and wind

hold onto me


I will not give in

 

4 comments:

Sunita Singh said...

Wow!

Sunita Singh said...

Wow!

Sangeeta Mishra said...

Wonderfully conceived, Sir! Awesome is the word!

Rukhaya said...

This is amazing!

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