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Wednesday, April 10, 2019

Glopowrimo #10 - one third of Glopowrimo done!
There was always a gap
between me and everything.

Reading of London
never having been,
or of American or French weather (terms and phrases)
but what did it have to do with my childhood, all this talk of heather
or gorse in the British countryside
even if it was in 'Wuthering Heights' which I indisputably loved?

It was the same with people
and my own landscape.
I knew the names of things
but the things themselves would escape me
unknowable
or I knew the things
but not their names
(or it was all confused between Malayalam, English and Hindi -
gloriously mismatched misfits -
Had I been sent by my mother to buy 'kakadi' or cucumber or ??????
Ah, yes, vellarikka!)
and people never understood me
that I was sometimes as harmless as the bumble bee
and sometimes as vicious as the ettadi moorkhan (eight-foot cobra)
but then again
I always saw
them
in a light, no different, that they themselves could not see.

Where were we, oh, let me see!
Yes, coming back to the weather
and this damn concept of the prompt
it never rained cats and dogs
in my vicinity
or even puppies and kittens.
As for regional phrasing and dialect
ours was much more earthy
we say "mazha peyunnu
maddalam kottunnu
maaraandachikku thooran muttunnu"
which translates to "the rain is falling
the drum is beating
maaraan's wife feels like shitting"
Don't ask me why or ''what is its meaning?" 
We love the kodungattu (storm-wind),
the chuzhelikattu (whirlwind)
We don't have the kaal boishakhi (nor'westers)
of Kol
and every Malayali guy
has this dream of
"it's raining, it's pouring
the old man is snoring
went to bed and bumped his head
and couldn't get up in the morning"
a Spanish Feliciano dream
while the hero sneaks out
the back-door and back-yard
and makes love to the heroine
in the driving, frenzied, wet and thundering-lightning
at or by or near the sarpakavu (serpent shrine)
bitten by snakes and the snake of lust
and love, and longing, and never regretting.

Tuesday, April 09, 2019

1. rivers in verse
rivers inverse
reverse rivers
rivers re-verse
2. The Periyar is my river
Our river
The secret of the river
is that it once had banks
on which people settled
for giving them water
the drink of life
and no river is more
or less
than any other
holy
Celebrated in a song
in Malayalam
in a film
it holds intimate memories
I have sailed on it in a huge boatsat on its steps
gazed at it for hours
from behind it wall
adjoining the YMCA
near Aluvamanappuram
admired its depth and blue
and how the sunshine sparkles
and at night the moon
on its creased surface
and how the river flows
I could stand or sit for hours
just watching it flow
3 Nature in its peace
quiet
calm
aglow
symbolized by the river
used to make me slow-
ly wake up to what was said
in Holy Writ
Creation shews forth thy power
and make me feel its song
making me a poet
akin to the sylvan ones
of Romantic fame
and akin to Hopkins
who knew to learn from it
I too would jot down thoughts
but only in my mind
how green became greenr
framed against the river's blue might
how pretty was the contrast
'tween blue above and blue below
and how the reflections of the sky
made rivers put Dali to shame
For walking on its bank
and watching the clouds float by
in the mirror of the river
made me feel in the sky
in which the river was flowing
that'd let me get off by and by
It was a tipsy feeling.
Glopowrimo #9
Hatelist
You know the neeru?
Funny name - not -for things that looked
transparent and filled with a kind of orange blood
scary-if-blown-up things
When one bit me I would try to drag it off
but it would not let go
and getting its pincers or legs or hands broken
to put it out of its misery
I used to be forced to kill it, you know.
I never hated them
but then I met these un-alien creatures
who were also transparent
in their hatred for me
and bit into them with my words
which they had to ignore
to pretend they had killed me
while I spat my insides out at them
hoping I was transparent
orange-blooded, bloody
and a giant in my own centaur world
so they fled
pincered, broken-legged or broken-armed
and dragging their broken bodies with the intestines gushing out
across my territory
while my mates stood and cheered
the neetal I had given them
for daring to fuck with me
You know the women?
Martha, Desiree, Caroline, Jane
When the moon was high
they used to come out of my irises
and stand on my eyelashes
to dance
Going blind, I would close my eyes
and claw at them blindly
but gouge out my eyes
Every woman was that reader I broke
for not being able to understand
my verses
You know those boards
black, green, white and smart
You know those coloured-differently chalks
Those marker pens
permanent or erasable
and those pointers
that killed the best
Every time I stood at the desk
I wished the laser would transfix my breast
Death was better than the system
I only wanted to blow up the empty cistern
and the leaking faucet of education
that dripped like stinking sewage water
black and rotten, to the core, my partner
I wanted to dismantle its bloody core
and give back to the world the days of yore
You know that fucking word?
Yes, the one that changed the world
I would so gladly go around these days
putting its sass, balls and lights out with a stick
so darkness would engulf the night's bill boards
and the dancing moon would again appear
over the fields to make me feel
the word and never say it out loud
Hate list hit list and fuck list
You read them all
Now tell me I'm not
Ever going to be rich and famous
and I'll show you my bare backside
because beyond my bile and rage is a world
that's full of another kind of a list
I would write it but before that need to write out this list.

Monday, April 08, 2019

Glopowrimo 8

© Koshy AV


Glopowrimo 8 - A Roundelay 
"8th April
Our prompt for the day (optional, as always), is inspired by Smith’s poem. You may have noted that the central metaphor of “Good Bones” turns on a phrase used by real estate agents. Today, I’d like to challenge you to think about the argot of a particular job or profession, and see how you can incorporate it into a metaphor that governs or drives your poem. This rather astonishing list of professional slang terms might help you get into the mood. Or, if you work a white-collar job, perhaps you can take inspiration from one of the business jargon phrases that seem to predominate in corporate environments (leveraging diverse synergies, anyone?)"
When people keep on asking me, with no vision
What, oh what, is your profession?
I lose my vaunted  gifts of elocution
Teaching is my profession
I pretend I am also good at seduction
But poetry, ah, poetry; has been my life-long passion!
Recently, I went to a rhyming, rhythmic, rocking, rolling poetry festival
A lady was much enthused by causes, and went on reading
Her poetry as if she was the only rider on the roller-coaster at some carnival
Her bosom heaved with all that emotional upheaval
I being a 100 percent, hot-blooded, repressed, suppressed, middle-aged, Indian male got lost in that commotion
A gent was sitting there 'sinisterlily' surveying the hall
You could see that he was a critic and having a secret, damned ball
Which one is in the canon? Which one has no cannon?
He kept on thinking, while I watched him decide who to make great, and who to make fall.
There were publishers and (sub-) editors and copies of copy-editors
There were proof-readers and journalists and would be's and wannabes
Some spoke of God and being and some spoke of dogs and peeing
Never a dull moment, yes, but was it poetry that I was hearing?
Poets, poets, everywhere, nor any verse to choose
Who all were writing iambs, or rhymes, or hemistitches, in twos,
Who all were counting syllables and who all waiting, impatient to go to the loo
Poets, poets, everywhere, all fancy free, footloose!
I began to feel dizzy at this profusion of poetry
To calm myself I chanted to myself the names of some poetic forms
Sonnet, nonet, haiku, haigu, ghazal, 'falafel':  then shifted to names of stanzas:
Couplet, triplet, quadruplet; no, these were of giving birth, the qualms
Nobel, Pulitzer, Booker, I tried to shift my tack
Jnanpith, Sahitya Akademi, I added to make up the slack
Shifting then to keep calm, Penguin, Pelican
Peregrine and Bloomsbury, Harpic, Hatchet, I dead-panned
Having run out of things to do, when they asked me for a reading
I looked at my mobile, chagrined; it had run out of 'beading'
Meaning its battery had died, so I stood there with a hollow, sinking feeling
As if cold water was sloshing around my legs, and in its iciness I was standing
Then gathering my courage in both my hands, I started thinking
Screw the canon, publishers, awards, editors and all who were pretending
I am a real poet, and can 'in an instant,' start leading
So after taking a deep breath and my heart from my mouth down-pushing
(Like Pushpa might have before her speech in Ezekiel's mind living)
I started on a glorious note, and began my composing
On my profession's argot, saying, "When people keep on asking..."
© Koshy AV

Sunday, April 07, 2019

Even when and where I think or thought
I am not being read
I am being read
I am spread out in atoms all over the world wide web
This is the brave new world, where I am particles discrete

In Poetry's Fist

Poetry cannot be weighed
measured
judged,certified
rewarded, awarded
can only be read
and pushed to jump off the ledge and fly
like a cat with a ball of twine
pushing it back and forth
back and forth
waiting for it to unwind
fully
Those that do you play with more
while the ones that have knots in it
make you wave your tail at it angrily
Poetry is that ball of twine
Different colours every time
I read and read hungrily
I read to slake my thirst with it
hunger for life
thirst for life
lust for life
it never dies
it lives
it grows
Poems, poets and poetry
Something more must be in store
around the corner
more balls of twine
great balls of fire
and balls of thunder
Poetry rains and falls on my face
like 
an orgy
unslaked
wet, ache
Poetry cannot be judged but some
remain
and some fall away
subjective and relative
like quantum
but absolute in having me in its grip and sway
Am I the dreamer
or the dream,
am I the keeper 
or is it the keep?
Am I the snake or the charmer of venom?
Do I draw out its blood and spit to save its life?
Am I the man rising and thrusting into each poem?
I can never have enough of it
Poetry. So I make everyone write it.
Especially the soft birds of the days
They know its secrets, they know its place
They know how it plays out
its sports and games
They know its grace
They know its hands make gestures lovely
Mudras of eternity
They know its hips are languorous and it buttocks sway savvily
They know the pots it carries on its heads
And no drop of water is spilt on the way 
They are its music makers
Dreamers of dreams
They are its songs
They are the ones each day I frame
to make them be found guilty so they can never escape
Poetry is the answer to the questions
Makes me a gaoler
and me, the forever jailed.

Ten Reasons why You should Vote for the Congress starting April 11th, to rule from the centre with its allies for a better future for India in the coming five years.
1. Congress knows the main problem in India is eliminating poverty and plans to address it.
2. The Congress encourages trilingualism of mother-tongue/ English/Hindi which is better for us globally than the one of Hindi/Sanskrit and truer to our diverse unity.
3. The Congress has young leaders in Rahul Gandhi, Priyanka Gandhi, and Sachin Pilot and others in the wings like Hardik Patel supporting them backed by experienced war horses like Manmohan Singh, Shashi Tharoor, Raghuram Rajan the economist, Scindia, and Sonia Gandhi, and new people like the Shatrughan Sinha family to counter the BJP who only has old war horses, whom people are now totally fed up with, like Modi, Shah, Jaitley.
4. The names I mentioned at the top rung show evidently that the Congress is multi-religious and multi-caste, still, though upper class, whereas the BJP is only one religion and upper caste based, and at the same time also upper class.
5. While corruption was the main charge against the Congress, it is now proved that BJP is as corrupt, the only difference being Congress allowed all to be corrupt, being weak, but BJP allows corruption only among its own ranks and lets others feel the heat. Both are wrong approaches, but one is not better than the other.
6. The Congress eschews violence, whereas the BJP and its satelllites like the RSS espouse and support it. The former trend is any day preferable.
7. The rupee has crumbled during the rule of the BJP showing that economically it could not deliver.
8. The Congress stands for unity in diversity but the BJP stands for uniformity at the cost of diversity and names as seditious, meaninglessly, those who speak against this kind of uniformity by calling a spade a spade, i.e.; as false unity.
9. All the issues raised by BJP like Pakistan, corruption, terror, infiltration of refugees,, Ram mandir, are all issues - except for corruption - that has no relevance to the ordinary, daily lives of most common people in India, whereas the ones being raised by Rahul like poverty alleviation, unemployment or underemployment, and women's reservation or help for farmers now have pressing relevance.
10. Democracy is based on plurality or at least having a binary system of party politics which makes it imperative that Congress be voted back this time so that democracy is upheld and not emotional appeals to only one third of Indians in the North alone, in the name of religion and hate, and division on such lines which only affect a few parts of North India and not the rest of India. To defeat BJP now, it is not enough to vote against them or to not vote but to vote for Congress presently as each vote counts and a vote for Congress is also a vote against BJP and a vote not wasted.
© Koshy AV
Dr Koshy AV is the author of six books and an established literary critic and theoretician of repute. He is presently teaching English literature in Saudi Arabia and is also an editor and compiler and anthologist in the fields of fiction and poetry wherein he has nine more books to his credit. He also works in the field of autism.

I do not know what I deserve.
But I don't seem to have got it -
Whatever it is!
I am ready to let go of nothing
and no one.
My hunger for love knows no limits.
If I gave myself a gift
it would be nothing less than
- the gentlest gift -
the Nobel
for what I am capable of writing which has not yet showed up on paper
The brightest song I, my body, ever held
was thrice, my new-born children
but first, my wife who birthed them
If I gifted myself joy
I would also gift you, my love, the moon
but only if you said I am your universe
could or would I give you the moon
and
everything else which are all in it
including this gift which given alone can be received multiplied
the gift of my love for 'thee'
for free
for all time, y' see.
©Koshy AV

Saturday, April 06, 2019

GLOPOWRIMO #6 IF ODYSSEUS RETURNS I & II or TWO POSSIBLE ENDINGS
If, one day
I come back
from far away
to one more home-not-home
but 'ours', not 'mine'
another rented stay
from where I was, alone
unannounced, and open the door
silently
and find
you there
turn to me, saying, "Dad"
so I drop my bags in surprise
my mouth falling open
that you are now restored
to what others call normalcy
and behind you coming to meet me
yes, they all, coming to meet me
one, tall, with a baby in her hands
behind her, the father
and another, small, with a child holding her hand
behind her, that child's father
and behind them one, silver-haired
I would weep
But then again
if it was not so, but only
that the door opened
to just you
same as you are now
and them too
same; and she, your wife, the same
just that all of us grew older
would it be any less joyful?
It may be, it could be
but it won't be any less joyful
even if...

Friday, April 05, 2019

http://www.napowrimo.net/day-five-6/

Write a poem that incorporates at least one of the following: (1) the villanelle form, (2) lines taken from an outside text, and/or (3) phrases that oppose each other in some way. If you can use two elements, great – and if you can do all three, wow!


GLOPOWRIMO #5
Tiger, Tiger, burning bright
Framed by street-lamp or in candle-light
Why do they think you are the killer, by right?
When a lamb goes missing, in the night
Or some calf, chick or turkey, they shout in a trice:
"Tiger, Tiger, burning bright!"
When a boy is heard of as lost
And found torn apart in some far outpost
Why do they think you are the killer, by right?
When a girl screams in the dead of the night
And her frock is found later, blood-stained, torn, out of sight
Tiger, tiger, burning bright
How dare they pass the buck and the blame
And reach for their guns and get up, you to slay?
Why do they think you are the killer, by right?
To me, you are the god of the night black as jet
The other side of light, and the lamb's midnight, yet
Why do they think you are the killer, by right;
Tiger, tiger, burning bright?
Copyright Koshy AV

Thursday, April 04, 2019

Glopowrimo April 2019 (the journey so far)
I. Early bird prompt: "And now for our early-bird prompt (optional, like all our prompts!) Today, we’d like to challenge you to write a poetic self-portrait. And specifically, we’d like you to write a poem in which you portray yourself in the guise of a historical or mythical figure. "
Self-portrait as .....
I am hanging between earth and sky
Breathing difficulty
Those who love me are far below
And somewhere up above is the Sky
When I cough it becomes thunder
The Sky answers with lightning
These are the words of my roaring
No one else answers
The drops of my sweat and blood
mingle
with the dust of the earth and the heat
Each drop has a cascading effect
From my eyes as they fall they seem to splinter
into the faces of millions
of drops
and shine
in the pitiless sun
tomorrow to be reborn
as a million different people
infused with my life and breath
Dead, buried, resurrected, ascended or not
The truth will be I will live on
in a million different others
Not in the ones who did not
but in the ones who will
My hunger for love
as vast as this Sky
in the echoes of always
eternity and infinity
being, from now on, fulfilled.


II. April 1
"For our first (optional) prompt, let’s take our cue from O’Neil’s poem, and write poems that provide the reader with instructions on how to do something. It can be a sort of recipe, like O’Neil’s poem. Or you could try to play on the notorious unreliability of instructional manuals (if you’ve ever tried to put IKEA furniture together, you know what I mean). You could even write a dis-instruction poem, that tells the reader how not to do something."
Instruction manual for poets
1.Better to be known by everyone
than to know everyone
so you can concentrate
concatenate your magic brew or potion
made of frogs, wood shavings and puppy dogs' tails
or lipstick, gloss and mascara's aid
2.Write to be the best
but don't rest
When you send things out and get rejected
remember it was only a misfit
and when you get accepted
don't take the credit lest you become lazy but
ascribe it to the same stars you were aiming for or at
3.The secret is to write
in such a way that
you write your heart out
so everyone reads you
but no one lets on
as they are jealous
as they get accepted
but they see burning in your poems
a fire
Icarus-like
in flight, without wings
soaring sunwards, higher than the heights
and just like Narayanathu branthan
roll your poems up Poetry Hill
then let let let let let them roll down
to the ground
and laugh
uproariously
whether they float or flail
on the ground
& whether they win, or they fall and fail.


III. April 2
Today’s prompt (optional, as always) is based on this poem by Claire Wahmanholm, which transforms the natural world into an unsettled dream-place. One way it does this is by asking questions – literally. The poem not only contains questions, but ends on a question. Today, I’d like to challenge you to write a poem that similarly resists closure by ending on a question, inviting the reader to continue the process of reading (and, in some ways, writing) the poem even after the poem ends.
The wall melts suddenly
Then I find it's under me
The devil is after me
Money takes wing and flies away
My health is a pool at my feet that I try
To make freeze into a piece of ice and put back inside
My body. Someone has my throat knifed.
I lie on my bed, stiff as a board
If I move I will be engraved
Too young for that, I do not stir
No dreams interrupt my ragged fight for breath
I'll get up and go for a syringe
A change of medicine will be, right now, just like a refreshing change of scene
It's death I am fighting, but I am not afraid
We fought many times before and each time we failed
To bring it to any definite conclusion
It can still go this way or that like the walk of a drunken inebriate
As for God, God is silent as usual
I put a coin in the slot of the jukebox
And hear relaxing music, deep-sleep refreshing music
Sounds of Nature, something something Hertz (582?), but I forget just how much it was
For six hours or eight hours
Or non-stop Christian hymns
Or worship music that gentles
Or old Malayalam film songs
Or what my Dad used to play
Country-classic gospel songs starting with Jim Reeves
All listened to for healing thatcdoes not come when I am in my sleep
I put a coin into the cup of God as if I am begging him to bless me
I put a coin into the cup of the watchman, the one who stands at the gate, and the doorkeeper
Then I run out of coins so it cannot become thirty
Three is the number of the ones in 'Tolstory'
I once loved a woman who probably loved me
Now she always and only lies to me
Whenever I tried to make the coin clink back in those days then it worked
But my fever I could not pass on when she twerked
Soon she was a tree and someone an axe
Who brought between her and me a tax
Of separation, a divide of contortion
A contraption of four legs that had no name but crawled
It crept into my blood like black ink in a cauldron
And as for all the others, they were axed into perdition
By me who could not stand for an instant any key
That could set me up or put me down to be
To end a long story or cut it short is to let it grow a tail
Am I sheep, pig, horse or donkey? I am unable to make avail
Of butterflies, sisters and three or four women in jail
I don't say it but I am pretty sure God is punishing me for my sins
I wish to stand up but when I sit down I'm on the windowsill
I look down, and the distance is too short to jump and kill
Myself. And there are no faces down there wanting me not to for me to get a thrill
And feel wanted. Just empty street. No kissing or whispering lovers, or songbirds trilling even, still.
My head was spinning and I was falling before reaching the end of the till
They may call it attempted suicide but as for me it was just a home-run of the ill.
A commonplace thing, when the pupa or coccoon
breaks, becomes a wet butterfly. But does it take to crooked wing?
(My poem hopefully does the opposite of the prompt)
IV. April 3
And now for today’s prompt (optional as always). Today’s prompt is based in a poem by Larry Levis called “The Two Trees.” It is a poem that seems to meander, full of little digressions, odd bits of information, but fundamentally, it is a poem that takes time. It takes its time getting where it’s going, and the action of the poem itself takes place over months. Today, I’d like to challenge you to similarly write something that involves a story or action that unfolds over an appreciable length of time. Perhaps, as you do, you can focus on imagery, or sound, or emotional content (or all three!)
Glopowrimo #3
Trivandrum: The 70s
You meet them, the mynahs, on the streets.
'One for sorrow
two for joy
three for a letter
four for a' ...
There you get stuck
so you listen, instead
to their whirring wings
(fluttering: small, chattering windmills)
their "key key key keeeeeeys" -
your home-brown smalls, their slender lives
see their black-and-white sprinkled, dark-brown coats
a variant of the crow-pheasant's browns
those yellow-ringed eyes, their dainty masks
Jeddah: 2009?
You see them again
They are not the same 'thems'
You, not the same you
Even the century, become new
The coconut trees replaced by palms
But the heart -
That longs only for some 'loving kindnesses'
and a few 'tender mercies',
'better than life' -
feels time fall away
and the dust of the past, of a space you love
settle again
on your parched lips
awhile.
V. April 4 "And now for today’s (optional) prompt, inspired by Teicher’s poem “Son“. One thing you might notice about this poem is that it is sad, but that it doesn’t generate that feeling through particularly emotional words. The words are very simple. Another thing you might notice is that it’s a sonnet – not in strict iambic pentameter, but fourteen rhymed, relatively short lines.
Today, we’d like to challenge you to write your own sad poem, but one that, like Teicher’s, achieves sadness through simplicity. Playing with the sonnet form may help you – its very compactness can compel you to be straightforward, using plain, small words.
Happy (or sad, we guess) writing!"
Glopowrimo #4 - A Roseate Sonnet
Self imposed exile for God knows what or why or what it means to Not Be There/Around
Life and Love are the great betrayers
Judas and Brutus, their embodiments
But even ordinary men, my mate
Can be or feel betrayed by indifferent Fate
As a child, his mother taught him to cycle
Along with his father. till he was happy not to topple
Off its saddle, but when he became a parent of three 'tenders'
He could not be there to run behind his kids' wobbling fenders
The women he loved and he were always parted
The things he wished he'd learned remained dear, but departed
Rose, sadness wears your brightest red hues
Oft, as the colour of a ghastly wound
Seen from the inside, pulsating, raw
Ever not healing, red as an infected craw
©®Koshy AV

Tuesday, January 01, 2019

Thursday, November 29, 2018

Wednesday, June 27, 2018

Wake Up, India: Essays for Our Times – Dalits in the Spotlight during 2014- 18 BJP Rule

https://countercurrents.org/2018/06/27/wake-up-india-essays-for-our-times-dalits-in-the-spotlight-during-2014-18-bjp-rule/

Saturday, April 07, 2018

Best Researcher Academician Jazan University English Department 2018

Dear friends , 
Happy to inform you that Jazan University has given me the BEST RESEARCHER/ACADEMICIAN AWARD of 2018 of the English Department presented to me by the Dean, and Vice Deans of Faculty of Arts and Humanities, Abu Arish College, Jazan, Saudi Arabia. First time ever, so I also enter (their) history. Reward for seven years of non stop hard work.
Also that the President of the University received from me gifts of my/our books Scream and Other Urbane Legends by Dr Koshy AV and LiFi PublicationsSilhouette I & II And Other Short Stories featuring Eternal Linksand Allusions to Simplicity by Authorspress: Publishers of Scholarly Books. Could not give the other books not having them.



Wednesday, April 04, 2018

Resurrection Day

Copyright Koshy AV
After the battles
after the wars
after the arrest, 'the torchlight red on sweaty faces'
after the betrayals, the denials, the trial
after the scourging, the spit and the mocking
after the falling, the weight, and the hoisting
after the desertions, and death, e'erything marred
despite the nails and the crown of thorns
despite the spear in the side and the wounds bleeding
despite the dark grave after the dying
After the thinning of the hair
After becoming more and more bald
After the black becoming the grey
After the paunch and the becoming ugly
After being one step closer each minute
To the fall of the final curtain for all
Despite everything
despite everyone
despite hunger, thirst, loneliness, grief, suffering and gall
despite the hurt, the pain, the sweat and the tears
despite it all
I find myself, still standing tall
far from the strife, the din and the fray
Despite fighting face to face
with the evil one who wanted to destroy me
I still have come to Resurrection Day
My feet have not stumbled, I did not fall
It was the stone that was rolled away
I am the Truth, the Life and the Way
The light of the world
Let no one now say
'Beyond here lies nothing'
It is a 'new morning'
"Fear not." Over such ones death no more has sway.

Wednesday, December 21, 2016

YES

The music of YES has accompanied me from childhood. Heart of The Sunrise carried me away into melody. Jon Andersen's girlish voice suited them perfectly and I had never heard a drummer as different as Bill Bruford. Wakeman stole the show with his Moog synthesizer in Close to the Edge and Steve Howe was also a class apart as an acoustic and lead guitarist, unique. As for Chris Squire, late, he was the only one who played bass like it was like lead. For me Yes started and ended with them, except for Trevor Rabin bringing in a  breezy, welcome, fresh, change of pop air in once. I agree with the Hitler meme video that Yes was them and like how LOTR music should be and produced nothing much of significance after Going for the One but for their classic YES period of five albums meaning Fragile, Close to the Edge, Relayer, Tales from Topographical Oceans and Going for the One they are up there with Genesis, King Crimson, Moody Blues, Jethro Tull, Pink Floyd and secondarily Marillion.  And 90125 makes for a good change from their usual style, as an album.

A White should also be mentioned, of course, as the drummer, but for me he never matched Bruford.

Happy they have been finally inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, at least in 2017.

Yes has had many other members over the years but only Tony Kaye matters to me of them and Peter Banks for nostalgia and sentimentality's sake, as well as Patrick Moraz. Igor Khoroshev needs passing mention.

Something needs to be said about Buggles' Trevor Horn as singer and Geoff Downes on keyboards as well as  DRAMA which is a fine album after the lacklustre TORMATO.

Heart of the Sunrise (FROM FRAGILE)


Finally, there is no Yes without the art of Roger Dean.

The pic is that of Union Yes which has all the members inducted into the HALL OF FAME





The image has Andersen, Wakeman, Bruford and Howe.


AND YOU AND I (FROM CLOSE TO THE EDGE)

For more information on YES line-ups and albums the best page is this one: http://yesworld.com/we-are-yes/


Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Metapfiction

Some other place, somewhere, some other time - a tentative start to a novel that may be renamed later

It must have been so. There, then he might have been a man and treated her cruelly while here, now it is just the opposite. He is still a man but being treated cruelly by her, a woman. This makes it symmetrical, aesthetic, if nothing else and hence, in that way, a matter of satisfaction. This does not lead to any kind of satisfaction, however, such a thought. What matters is not to be treated with cruelty and not treating someone cruelly.  Of course, there are no other lives or planets or universes, it is here itself that they have both been one thing or the other to each other. The blame is equally distributed or apportioned as is the praise. It is only in such encounters that one finds out how much of the worst and the best one can have brought out in one and bring out in the other. Looking at it in that sense such encounters are truly significant as harbingers of self-knowledge, if not worth having or beneficial. Maybe they are that too. Maybe in the long run, they turn entirely poisonous or malignant or entirely benign, like cancer cells, if such a thing is possible.


Metafiction - This won't be there in the final draft probably.

The thing about writing a novel is this: where does one start? The form itself is puzzling in 2016 December. Is it about writing a lakh of words? Or is it about passion and intensity? Is it form and genre, structure, style, language, mood, ambience, atmosphere, plot, story, characters, characterization, settings, details, feelings and emotions, points of  view and all the other things he teaches like exposition, rising action, conflict, confrontation, complication, climax, falling action and resolution? Is it having a giant vocabulary and having an impeccable grasp of grammar and syntax as well as dialects and registers and a feel for the language as it is used now and was and will be later? Using lakh reveals one's nationality. "Where do I begin? To tell the story of how great a love can be?" "Let's start at the very beginning." But where does 'a great love story' begin?  One that is 'older than the sea'? And 'younger than the mountains'? Is he a plagiarist for using all these quotes? No. He puts them in double or single quotation marks and it does not matter in creative writing. Is this going to be just that or something more? Can he roll all three stories he wants to into it plus the story of the nation or nations he has been in to make it what he really wants to, an epic novel like the ones the Russians wrote. The novel had died after them. Tagore's Gora and Bankim Chandra Chatterjee's Anandmath and Lalithamabika Antharjanam with her novel that included Gandhi in it were all written in its heyday in a sense by their getting to know of the greats only later and so they had been still been able to write 'proper' novels. Every great novel after that was proof of its deconstruction, be it Ulysses or Death of Virgil or American extravaganzas like Gravity's Rainbow which he hated and could not finish or Beckett's classics or any other novel that still mattered after the Russians, especially after Anna Karenina. This dissolution of the well-made novel existed even in War and Peace and Doctor Zhivago. It could be seen even in Jude the Obscure and in the fact that Dickens could not finish his last Drood novel.

He is that rare phenomenon, a great writer stuck in the past in a world that no longer cares for such a gigantic misnomer or freak and he wants to write a novel, this one - part of a trilogy but starting with the last one first and not yet knowing how to go about it but feeling his way.

It makes for good reading, though, as it always did.

One could start with repetition. That is how one always starts. The first woman he loved was his mother. Then his sister. After Freud, no such statements are possible without admitting that it is all incest, too, of some kind or the other. Oedipus complex. What is the word for sister love complex? He does not know. There must be one. Sibling love, probably. Interesting. Must google it or look it up. Musil was the one who dealt with it in his classic incomplete novel. Diotima and Ulrich. The novel had killed him or he had died while writing it. Would this one kill him too?

GSA, it seems.

'Roll call of names. Names fly in the wind.' He has written of it in Anamika too and thus in a diary ages back and was now writing it here again. This would not do, one does not talk of love by listing out the names of every girl or woman he had ever had a crush on as if it was a poem or a shopping or laundry list. That does not lead to the novel - what would lead to it is planning, research, preparation, writing, perfect execution - the things he blamed Modi of not doing regarding demonetisation.

So where does one begin?

Humour?

Some other place, somewhere, some other time - a tentative start to a novel that may be renamed later

It must have been so. There, then he might have been a man and treated her cruelly while here, now it is just the opposite. He is still a man but being treated cruelly by her, a woman. This makes it symmetrical, aesthetic, if nothing else and hence, in that way, a matter of satisfaction. This does not lead to any kind of satisfaction, however, such a thought. What matters is not to be treated with cruelty and not treating someone cruelly.  Of course, there are no other lives or planets or universes, it is here itself that they have both been one thing or the other to each other. The blame is equally distributed or apportioned as is the praise. It is only in such encounters that one finds out how much of the worst and the best one can have brought out in one and bring out in the other. Looking at it in that sense such encounters are truly significant as harbingers of self-knowledge, if not worth having or beneficial. Maybe they are that too. Maybe in the long run, they turn entirely poisonous or malignant or entirely benign, like cancer cells, if such a thing is possible.

Monday, December 19, 2016

I gave you my everything, finally
Because I never will, again
When you finally get really, really hurt
it ceases to matter if it was meant or not
if to hurt was the intention from the other side
or it was only the ignorance of selfishness
There's just the shock of getting hurt
of knowing something this time got broken
and that it cannot be repaired
There's only the tears you never shed
There's only the blood you never bled, in this place
The lonely room and the empty space
When you really get hurt, hurt, hurt.

A couplet

I would of have been glad to stay
If only you had not driven me away

Goodbye.

It was a dead end
(but) even dead ends (reach their) end
It (too/finally) did

It was a one-way street
a one-way ticket
That is why since day before I gave it my all
after understanding just who you were and I looked like to all
It was my farewell gift
after understanding how well you are able to make me die
and fall
You did not hear the terrible thud
it made
when
I killed (y)our love
as it ended
the music
dying in my room
of my love for you
a sound softer than the sound of a dying fall
If you had you would have wept
as the one that died, it's true, lost
but nothing as much as to what you lost
compared
to what you would have got
in the many years still left to it
if you had not done this (at) all.

God and I + you and I

Only God
can create or make
something out of
nothing

Only God
can let people never die
make them drink of the fountain of everlasting youth
reverse or halt aging or disease
heal in a second and fully, miraculously
make people live forever
Only God
the philosopher's stone

overcomes death
brings back people from the dead
can be in two places at the same time
and travel into the past and the future, melt time


If I was God
having loved you
I would
unmake and remake you
as what I want you to be
from or out of thin air
give you youth and beauty
eternal
never let you die
bring you back from death if you did
let you always be with me
invisible to  others if and when needed 
and also in the past and the future
just in case there are other lives
or were
and to go one better than Him
would prove to this clone of yours
that by granting you or her
and not me
all this
it still would be 
as hopeless
as my love for the other, earlier you
again.

This is why I am not God
This is why it is clear
I am
only a lover
a failure
and that you are not anywhere in the picture
in the first scenario
or the second.

Saturday, October 22, 2016

Adverb poem - Brightly

Brightly the fire burns in the hearth, of the home 
where the children are sleeping quietly.
Brightly the moon shines in the night, above the loam
where the grass is soughing in the wind gently.
Brightly the cat’s eye glows yellow at night.
Before it winks shut, it turns green slowly.
Brightly  and  spread out are the city’s lights
that look like fireflies shimmering softly. 
Brightly the sun sends its blessings from its heights
to the land down below, and then blazes hotly.
Brightly the stars glint before sleep closes one's eyes
and dreams come to chase us in its meadows, playfully.

©  Koshy AV

Adverb poem - Brightly

Brightly the fire burns in the hearth of the home
Brightly the moon shines in the night above the loam
Brightly the cat’s eyes glow yellow at night
Brightly  and  spread out are the city’s lights
Brightly the sun sends its blessings from  its heights

Brightly the stars glint,  before sleep  closes one’s eyes

Copyright, Koshy AV

Thursday, August 04, 2016

SHAMAN


You take the half-grown python, with no teeth, from its receptacle
She waits, naked, to be imbued with power to procreate
You write runes on the parchment
Make her fertile
Bind sterility's curse
Initiate, bring new life to her womb


The symbol, most potent; the most ancient one, stirs
(You are fully at ease
Born to do this
Awake, alive!)
You hold the snake firmly, make its cloven tongue kiss
Her eyes, her eyelids closed
Then move it over her face
To her lips, circle it down to her breasts
To make it flick-lick her nipples
Circle both her areola
And her breasts
Down, further
Rhythmically
Past her soft, flat stomach and belly button
Making a bee-line...
She
Complies
Reclining, lying down, opening...
Certain
You know what you're doing

The living mortar pestles
The Milky Way
Entering, head first, entirely, its entirety
Through the dense underhung
Tangled black
Worming, being pushed in, squirming...

The engorged passage
Makes curds and whey
You, the medium of the Absolute
At-one with the Spirit
The snake, yours
She, a willing vessel
You, the snake and she - One
With the silent universe
Dark as your hand
Lit with the veins on its skin
The pattern on the snake
Stars blossom, black and white, burst and fall
In the deeps of inner space

Her breathing
Becomes peaceful
Still

Like yours

The snake
Curls up

Meat. Dead beat.
(c) KOSHY AV 8.5.2016

SHAMAN


You take the half-grown python, with no teeth, out from its receptacle
She waits, naked, to be imbued with power to procreate
You write the magic runes on the parchment
That will make her fertile
Bind the curse of sterility
Initiate her & bring about new life in her womb
The symbol, most potent, the most ancient and powerful one, awaits
(You are fully at ease
Born to do this
Awake, alive - You!)
You hold the snake firmly and make its cloven tongue kiss
Her eyes, her eyelids closed
Then move it down over her face
To her lips, then circle it down to her breasts
To make it flick-lick her nipples
Circle both her areola
And her breasts
Move down, further
Rhythmically
Past her soft, flat stomach and belly button
As she
Complies
Lying down, reclining, opening up
Certain
You know what you are doing

The living mortar pestles
The Milky Way
Entering, head first, entirely in, in entirety
Through the dense underhung
Tangled black
Worming its way
The engorged passage
Makes whey
You become the medium of the Absolute
Totally at-one with the Spirit
The snake, yours
She, the willing vessel
You, the snake and she become One
In the ritual
With the silent universe
Dark as your hand
Lit with the veins on its skin
The pattern on the snake's skin
Stars blossom, burst and fall in the deeps of the inner space of the cosmos

Her breathing
Becomes peaceful and still

So does yours

The snake is returned
(c) KOSHY AV 8.5.2016

Shaman


You take the half grown python, with no teeth, out from its receptacle
She waits, naked, to be imbued with the power to reproduce and procreate
You have written the magic runes on the parchment
That will help to make her fertile
Bind the curse of sterility
Initiate her and bring about new life in her womb
The symbol, the most potent, the most ancient and powerful one, awaits
you
(You are fully at ease
Born to do this
Awake, alive - You!)
Ready to be used
The ritual starts
You hold the snake firmly and make its cloven tongue kiss
Her eyes, her eyelids closed
Then move down over her face
To her lips, then circle down to her breasts
To make it flicker over her nipples
Circle both her areola
And her breasts
Move down further
Rhythmically
Past her soft, flat stomach and belly button
As she
Complies
Lying down, reclining fully, opening up wholly
In the certainty
That you know and are sure of what you are doing
In control, and will not harm her
The living mortar pestles
The Milky Way
Entering entirely
Through the dense growth in the jungle
The black forest of the night
The engorged passage of Life
Makes whey
You have become the medium of the Absolute
Totally at-one with The Spirit's force
The snake is yours
She, the willing vessel
You, the snake and she become One
In the sacred ritual
With the silent universe
Black as your hand
Lit with the veins on its skin
The patterns on the skin of the snake
Stars blossom, burst and fall in the deeps of the inner space of the cosmos
And her breathing
Becomes peaceful and still

So does yours
(c) KOSHY AV 8.5.2016

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Anniversary

https://harivarasanam.wordpress.com/2015/09/01/the-contributors-having-their-say-the-significant-anthology/

Sunday, July 03, 2016

Too many love poems

"There are too many love poems in the world."
"Yes."
"It gets boring after some time. Or maybe there aren't enough."
"I don't write love poems. Mine are more like love poems that are hate poems.They have a bite."
"Yes."
"Like we can't write without being inspired by women and we can't write unless we are free from them?"
"Yes"

A "story" someone told me today.

He is this young chap I know from on Facebook. We talk off and on, for some strange reason. Dylan is a connect and so is Cohen and I surprise him at times by writing something he considers way out, on par with Kerouac and others. He writes rhyming poems that all read like Dylan during his best years, to a large extent. But they are good in themselves and very readable. He also writes good fiction. He has a dad and he does weed. He is a college dropout. He periodically posts saying he is in some asylum or the other. We always have extremely sane conversations, though. He has a grandmother. I told him of my son today and he told me that his dad said he was autistic, but we are both not I told him. He agrees.
I said that we always have sane conversations but today it turned bizarre. He said he had jumped off a bridge once and it was because of Dylan. When I asked him which song and which line of Dylan's made him do it he said, no, I met him.
He told me he had once been admitted in some place in Warwickshire for doing weed and was on rehab mode but it was there he had met D. His name also begins with D. Anyway he told Bob that he wrote fine songs and asked him where he could get some acid. He says the trip turned sour on him then,  there and he was "Sectioned." It ended with the bridge thing, I guess. He says he knows "what really happened". Despite it being 'written of in the papers and things as something else.'
I asked him if I could steal his story
What for, he asked.
To write as a story or poem, I said.
Sure if you don't use my name, he said.
I haven't.
Wish he hadn't danced with Mr D.
No song finer than Idiot Wind which he, his dad and I all like. The fist line in it seems to have got into his jugular.
Fifty years on, since Blonde on Blonde, and Visions of Johanna.
My son has a lot of very small pots on the balcony of my rented house that he takes and removes the plants from, then pours the mud out into his hands and pours it back. The plants die. They are weeds mad Mary brings. More about her some other time. The pots empty. I  say nothing. I have a video of it but do not know how  to transfer it from Whatsapp or my mobile phone to here.
That is something that "really happened."
Wish my friend becomes alright.

Saturday, July 02, 2016

Introspection.

I am thirteen books into writing now or fourteen or fifteen or sixteen depending on how I look at it.
Plus I have tonnes of published material and uncollected material etcetera lying around. Of my books,  "Art of Poetry," the most popular one that I had a hundred copies of, has only two copies left (I think) and  "The Significant Anthology," edited by me, Reena Prasad and Michele Baron has also sold out its first edition. "Wake Up, India: Essays for our Times," that was co -authored with Dr Bina Biswas sells. My first officially published solo collection of poems "Allusions to Simplicity" is also selling.

However it is time to think, not of taking a break from writing but of where it is all heading. Have quit at the peak of my game just when it is beginning to pay off as writing needs not just one being prolific but one being quality conscious too, eventually. My books so far were all above average and not mediocre, according to me, but that is not enough for me, as I desire something more.

I am working on an anthology of short stories, along with Michele Baron, and my own collection of short stories and a long poem with notes next, as well as planning to collect all my published and unpublished stuff and perhaps revamp and re-edit what has already been brought out. These are ambitious plans and time may not permit it.

I came across several or many prolific writers on Facebook, like Neelam Saxena Chandra, Mahesh Dattani, Chitra Lele, Dr Santosh Bakaya, Santosh Alex as a translator, Dr Bina Biswas, Dr Sayantan Gupta, Pramila Khadun and many others, all with books running into more than ten or many to their names, anyway.

I recently read an article that says it is the one who collects rejections most and/or who writes prolifically who becomes good. There is some truth in this.

I also read one on Bad Writing and some sentences struck me particularly.

"Bad writing is almost always a love poem addressed by the self to the self. The person who will admire it first and last and most is the writer herself."

"...good writing is a way of making the self as vulnerable as possible."

"Conversely, bad writers often write in order to forward a cause or enlarge other people’s understanding of a contemporary social issue. Any attempt to write fiction in order to make the world a better, fairer place is almost certain to fail. Holding any value as more important than learning to be a good writer is dangerous. Put very simply, your characters must be alive before they seek justice."


"To go from being a competent writer to being a great writer, I think you have to risk being – or risk being seen as – a bad writer. Competence is deadly because it prevents the writer risking the humiliation that they will need to risk before they pass beyond competence. To write competently is to do a few magic tricks for friends and family; to write well is to run away to join the circus."
"Your friends and family will love your tricks, because they love you. But try busking those tricks on the street. Try busking them alongside a magician who has been doing it for 10 years, earning their living. When they are watching a magician, people don’t want to say, “Well done.” They want to say, “Wow.”
Writing on Facebook for so many years has both helped me and hindered me, by making me both raise my standards in one sense, the competitive one of trying to create or carve a niche for myself, and drop them in another sense, in the one of being forced to be nice to writers who are often only novices and beginners as part of my teaching approach, from doing what I love most in life and do well, it also being the only thing I know how to do in a way, which is to write.
Taking a break from it, meaning writing on Facebook, will help me to focus on what I really do again which is to write properly till I burn out and produce something great on the way that others will not willingly let die.
The quotes are from: https://www.theguardian.com/books/2016/may/20/what-makes-bad-writing-bad-toby-litt

I have been critic, collaborator, poet, editor, co-editor, anthologist, compiler, co-author, writer, author, book maker, book producer - and so many more things in such a short time but am still dissatisfied as I have evaded the main question which is of how to be all this in such a way that I am not one of the better writers just because we live in a mediocre age but as my writing is truly timeless and universal. Blogging is probably the way out as here with no audience I can write what I want, and re-invent myself,  relearn, keep learning. That is the way forward.

There are other questions to tackle too. Should I be a critic or a poet or both? These are my strengths, and in that order. Explore fiction and drama too? I feel these issues sort themselves out naturally. The challenge for me is fiction, the short story and the novel and the novella or novelette.

Or should I work for autism and at encouraging other writers to come up, especially not forgetting ones in my own family. And my friends. And what about spirituality and my job?

It is all worth thinking about.







Has my poem read by Harish Bhatia in there. Played at New York at Ink Spot by Indigo Soul or S Dot Hope
http://www.blogtalkradio.com/wordemup/2016/07/02/the-ink-spot-radio-showopen-mic-nite

Saturday, April 30, 2016

A Digression | Sanskrit, Dravidian, Indian and Grecian Literary Criticism

A Digression | Sanskrit, Dravidian, Indian and Grecian Literary Criticism: This article compares and uses Sanskrit and Dravidian Indian literary criticism with Grecian criticism on English text with examples from India mixed in too.

Tuesday, March 08, 2016

Notes On Literary Criticism by Dr A V Koshy - Learning and Creativity

Notes On Literary Criticism by Dr A V Koshy - Learning and Creativity: The whole concept of literary criticism arises, maybe, out of a question: On what basis do we judge a book/text as being better than another book/text?

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